dear you,
is your city’s energy different when the sun is still out at 5pm on a thursday?
we went into a plant store called chive. it was flooded with sunlight. jazz played from the ceiling and we were surrounded by green.
i thought “this is comfort embodied”.
i imagined myself working there, instead of being a visitor. the cozy plant shop full of sunlight on a thursday. would i close up at 7pm, walk home and cook for myself with more jazz playing in the background?
i moved from vancouver to toronto just over a year ago now. i’m fortunate to be surrounded by family but i am sad about the distance i live from my friends who, myself included, have moved across canada & beyond to different places and spaces.
i decided to experiment with a different version of life that was more nomadic and nimble. i’m not sure how good it’s been for me. i find it impossible to sort through my mind.
i want to allow myself to build a community again. to have a local bar and cafe that i visit. to be a regular, somewhere.
what would it be like to just settle down?
· hosting my parents for dinner in my own space
· calm evenings of reading
· bike rides with my partner
· controlling my own life
· getting into sourdough
· having a garden
maybe it would be as simple as actually having a place for a plant from the plant shop.
i don’t know if i ever had these things when i lived in vancouver. i was still growing, maturing. i had other worries than recognizing my independence and community.
moving away from my friendships has strengthened them in incredible ways. i feel closer to my friends more than i ever had. i miss when we could walk across the street and be together, all living on campus back in the day.
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i like this video. it reminds me of the warmness of my evening.
hugs,
🫶 hannah